36 weeks...and i've hit the wall!!

so, evidently the peanut and i have been bopping along through the pregnancy. occasionally she slows me down, demands my attention "no, you can't sleep, i need to practice my breakdancing!", but for the most part we have continued to take care of business with relatively little difficulty or drama.

then i hit week 36...this is what i thought it would be like when i crossed into third trimester. but, since there was no change i allowed myself to be lulled into the lie that it would be like that through the end. now i not only need to give myself extra time to get things done and prioritize what i want to get done to do first (because i may not make it) but i have to prepare myself for random chunks of time that i may just crash: physically, emotionally, sleepily (?).

today was a good day, i was able to focus on work for 3 hours straight! i also had enough energy to go to a meeting of people from community churches. those days usually follow a solid night of sleep, which only happens every other night at most, sometimes once every 3 nights. i try to sleep whenever the urge hits, if possible with meetings, appointments, and errands. i am starting to have this fear of going into labour after i have pushed myself to the edge and not be able to get a good few hours sleep first.